I've really been trying to trust God, I know that He is in total control, and this is His plan, not theirs or ours. That is truly comforting because God is perfect, His plans are perfect and if anyone had to choose what we do with our lives I'm definitely glad it is Him.
But sometimes it just sucks. Just thinking about how they are up there and how they are not just on vacation, that they won't be back in a few days is scary.
Hannah is basically the bestest friend ever. We met in like 9th grade at the horrible PEP and soon realized that we both hate school, both love boys (just kidding...teeheehee) both loved passing notes in class teeheehee (just sometimes, okay). So by 10th grade we were good friends and then 11th grade definitely bffls. We had like almost every class together, I saw her at least four days a week and then we both got jobs around the same time and we both encouraged each other in our walk with Jesus. I LOVE how we talk about Him. I mean I may not be the best encouraging friend but Hannah for sure is and she has really encouraged me in that area of my life. Especially since we made that deal or whatever where we have to tell each other EVERYTHING haha. Like EVERYTHING leaving nothing out. That usually helps in strengthening friendships.
Then one day as we were at pep just hanging out getting in trouble probably lol she told me the AWFUL news that she was leaving. My heart broke basically haha. It sucked. But the good thing was that she had thought they were leaving before senior year of school even started, but thankfully the waited and I got to spend that first and half of the second semester with her in a couple of my classes.
I've met some really great people through her, like REALLY great. Like I couldn't even live without them.
Basically, I am just rambling and I really miss her but her amazing sister Abby (them Bourques are just awesome) asked if I wanted to do this book/Bible study with her and it's really going to help me see that this is the best thing for them because it is what God told them to do. And it's also going to help me with the rest of my life.
I also really miss Amy. Obviously we aren't life bffl bffls because she is the younger sister of my bffl and basically my younger sister and therefore we have a love/hate relationship..well not really hate just love relationship that you have with sisters teeheehee. But I really love Amy and she is amazing and even though she is a boy haha jk I won't go there. She is truly a beautiful loving girl, who acts all tough and it's cute :P And Amy asked and asked and begged me to come to Rock one week, the youthgroup at ECC and so I went and LOVED it. These people are some of the greatest I've ever met, and if Amy hadn't been so in love with God and them then I probably would have never come and met them. It's been a huge blessing and it's just freaking awesome lol.
All in all, I'm sad to say goodbye. Like really sad. I don't want to go back to school and have 2-3 hours of break because usually I would hang out with her and we would talk about everything and now I am just going to be sitting in the cold death study hall by myself. Maybe I should use this time to meet new people, and strengthen my other friendships, idk. I just know that God loves us and does not give us more than we can handle with Him, and that we are all going to get through this.
The Bourques will be back in just over a month, and we will have a great week or so with them, and then summer will come and we will go to college and encourage each other from wherever we are in the world and we will see each other on breaks and stuff.
I read this verse today about the God being the vine and how we are the branches and it's just a really great verse.
"I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing." John 15:5
I really love this verse a lot. Like it might be one of my favorites. Without God, we are nothing. We are just sinners who have no hope. Jesus saved us though, so now we can become God's children. If we abide in Him, just like this verse says, then we will bear much fruit for His glory. Our life will have purpose and we can have peace knowing that we are doing the right thing. I am glad that Hannah and Amy moved only because they are living in God's will. If they had stayed they wouldn't have been going where God called them and that would have sucked (yeah I need to take a vocabulary class...I know lol).
This is a really long post of me just going on and on and on about how I miss them. Best friends moving away = no fun. I don't wanna finish the school year because it's gonna be really different without them here. But I can't wait to see what God does in Michigan with them and here in good ol Jacksonville with us.
Now I should probably focus on this darn school that was due forever and a day ago.
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