Wow it's been a whole month!
That went by fast. It's scary, next year I'll be a senior, then...a grown up! :o
Haha, anyways.
I've been thinking over the past few...days, weeks?
Everything I've been doing "for God" hasn't really been for Him, it's been for me.
My quiet time, worship, reason to go to church, anything I do that may even seem a little bit "holy" wasn't holy.
I was noticing that I didn't really want to do any of this with my heart, but I wanted to do it so I could tell people that my quiet time has been good, or that I love Jesus with my whole heart.
And to tell you the truth, I haven't read my Bible in TOO LONG. It's insane.
God tells us to "Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. (Deut. 6:5)"
I wasn't loving Him with anything to be frank. I mean, yes I do love him, but "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking...(1 Corinth. 13:4-5)" I wasn't being patient, I was being very rude and very very very selfish.
I know I am not a bad person, and that I am saved by God's grace, but I have to get my act together. I really really love God, and I need to start treating him better. I would do this for my family, and for any other loved ones, and I know it will be hard, but God is my creator and saviour, he is the only one I should worry about.
So, I guess as encouragement, you can look at my faults and sins, and just know that don't let your life be empty. Give God EVERYTHING. Yes, it will be super hard, and yes, you will mess up, but don't get discouraged, he is there for you, to help you serve him. It's funny how that works but it's true. God will never give you more than you can handle.
If things get hard, you need to fully depend on him. Love him, don't take him for granted because so many people do and they don't realize that they have the GOD OF THE WHOLE FLIPPIN UNIVERSE on their side :)
Peace out.
