April Showers Bring May Flowers!

It's already May! I can't believe it. Seriously, I can't.

It's going to be the best month ever, for several reasons.

1. School ends.

2. Surprise! Summer starts (:

3. My best friend comes home! for...

4. ... our high school graduation! Holla.

5. Orlando with Alexis!! Getting senior pictures done :)

That is just five out of a ton of reasons (okay I really can't think of any more but I am sure there are!) that prove that May is the bomb!

So many things have happened recently.

Like, I talked about Justin Bieber for 10 minutes in class (was a speech)...that was fun and amazing basically even though I hate talking. Ew. Also I turned 18!!! Now I can do...everything that I have no desire to do! Woot woot. But it is nice being able to work whatever I want and all. Now I am going to work over the summer a toooonn and hopefully buy a car!

Also, some of us girls at R.O.C.K have started leading small groups and it's been really cool. Well, okay, let me back up. It is a great idea, I love it and at first everything was amazing (and still is...just wait for the story). And I love Shelly who is my partner and I love our girls and I am so glad I can be there for them and to help them. But lately I've been thinking about how I feel like I don't even know anything. Lol (just had to add that).

But really, the girls in our group probably know sooo much more than me, about life and God and the Bible and sometimes I think it's unfair that I am supposedly their leader when they are leading me. It's my fault really. Over the past few years I haven't been spending time with God and reading his Word like I should be. I always tell myself I'm too busy and whatnot when really I am too lazy and just stupid haha!

But I don't want to just say "oh well" and continue on with my life. I am starting to think that this is a good thing! These girls will encourage me to read His Word because I want to be able to really lead them and know how to answer their questions and the only way that will happen is if I know the Bible. So yeah. Basically I want to take this as an opportunity to really get my act together! To start living for Christ, walking the walk and not just talking the talk!

I know I know. This is a blog at 2am and it's really easy to type a ton of words. Well, I am serious. I don't want to keep putting other things before my Saviour. He deserves everything and who am I to hold it back? Ugh. Okay this is going to be hard. But with so many big decisions before me I definitely don't want to go head first alone! In fact I don't want to be deciding anything I want God to and how is that gonna happen if I'm not listening? Duh.
And I'm talking to myself, great haha.

I just like to avoid school and blog at late hours when I have nothing else to do, that is all.